Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Love of My Life

As I prepare to decorate many graves of loved ones, I am mindful of one special person who was in my life.  The final resting places of our ancestors are special. 

My dearest husband ...
As I decorate your grave this first Memorial Day after your death, I am mindful of how quickly this first year has gone.  Day by day after you left me, I thought the days could not be any longer.  They passed so slowly and each step I took seemed painfully sluggish.  What was I supposed to do with my life?  An empty life without you in it.  It was a life that I had known for almost forty-six years with you, by my side, in my arms, my thoughts and in my waking and sleeping moments.  Now as quickly as I could blink my eyes, you were gone from me. 

Four days before your death, you told me that I should resume my genealogical research, my passion for genealogy, my writing, teaching and lecturing.  You knew that you were not going to be with me much longer.  I had cared for you for three years.  We cried together, laughed together and prayed together.  After you left, I knew each day that I must return to my genealogy.  I knew you were proud of me and my work.  Each day I grew stronger and more secure in what I was doing.  

There is not a day that goes by when I am researching ancestors, mine and those of others, that I do not think of you.  All the memories of our life together come rushing back.  Like a surge of energy, I know you are here guiding and encouraging me.  You will always be here in my heart, my mind and soul.  I know you are with the ages and those wonderful ancestors and relatives who paved the way for us and our life together.  

You are still the love of my life!   .... Ruby 


Anonymous said...

Oh Mom, That is so very touching. I think of Dad and miss him every day too! I know he is watching over us and giving you the guidance you so much deserve with your genealogy! He is still TRYING to guide me too! We love him and miss him very much!

We all love you very much to!

Love your daughter Susie, granddaughter Tyrah and grandson Joshua

Judy Shubert said...

Ruby, I have found your blog "googling" Genealogy Lines, trying to come up with a title for my own blog! I also love genealogy and have been delving into it for the past 20 years, with more emphasis the last 10. Your letter to your husband is so touching, so heartfelt, and sincere it's hard not to put myself in your shoes. Thank you for your work and may God bless you and your family.